I cried 5 times this week? Even as I'm posting this, I'm wiping my tears. I HATE STUDYING! Like seriously, I'm not being childish or what. But I really hate studying. A book before me, and I start tearing. And idk what YOUR problem is. I don't even want to post.....
Just gonna say, u r my friend, no matter how bad I'm treated. Because I'm such a person. I will accept, so why don't u do? Accept that I'm like that. I'm just lone okay? Why want me to be otherwise?
I won't , because I can't I can't and things are way past your imagination.....
Signing Off~
该放手就放手
Date: Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I cried. I don't want school anymore. I hate school. I hate studying. I tried being positive, thinking "tmr will be better!" Half a day off school, I really feel much better. But today, back in school, I really can't get myself to think positive. Don't get a shit about physics, failed my SS. I watch as all of u move on, yet I'm stuck, in my own thoughts. It's time to move on, let go. First term's gonna be over in 2-3 weeks. Can't keep being like this. How many do I know in my new class? How many do I call friends instead of classmates? And she thinks I'm spending too much time with friends, but truth is, I have so few. 是时候，放手吧~
Memories are only to be remembered...
Signing Off~
我不是超人
Date: Thursday, February 16, 2012
I wonder how long I can hold... One day I think I'm gonna let it all out. I'm on the verge of breakdown.. I really can't take this year's lifestyle. Yes, I'm super inflexible I know T.T but what to do, that's me and I can't change me overnight.
Signing Off~
THINKING POSITIVE!
Date: Saturday, February 4, 2012
So~ I wanna be happier! But how? not with such a life? But who cares? Just live how I want to! JUST BE HAPPY!
Signing Off~
Society drives people insane.
Date: Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Hmm, so I guess this time I'ld be back on blogging for good? Ever since the beginning of school, I never felt quite the same. Maybe I've yet to get used to the fact that I am NO LONGER secondary 2, I am NO LONGER 204'11, I AM 15 now... I feel so weird in school, true, I've made new friends, but I just feel different. Not that I"m being selfish and want to "keep" and "tie" my friends to me, but it's kind of saddening to see them with new friends. Not that I'm jealous, but I really miss the old times. How I wish I could turn time backwards, even just for a day, i'll have a whale of the time, having fun with my old friends and being carefree. Somehow, I still feel awkward in my new class.. So much uncertainty. The amount of homework now is incredible too~ My CNY holidays ended today, and here comes the deadline for the CNY homework, teacher's chasing us for the work blah.. Is it just my class? Because it seems other classes have lesser subj's of homework? Why o why... Why do we have homework for almost every subj except for Math? Talking about Math, here comes another headache... My teacher is nice, but I really don't like Math, and every lesson, every sum, even just looking at numbers, I get a terrible headache and my heart just cringes.. I've just gotten so terribly afraid of Math. I've asked for tuition, not that I have conceptual problems, but I need to boost my confidence. Yes, I shouldn't be so dependent, but things ain't gonna improve.. Sigh.. Why won't she understand? I really can't take anymore.. Same goes for Chemistry... They keep saying I'm lazy and don't read blah blah.. fact is I just can't get it into my head, and the minute I see balancing of chemical equations, I feel like crying, not being dramatic, but YES.
谁能了解我？who can understand me?
Okay, enough whining.. Altho no one's listening, I feel better blogging this. And since this year feels bad to me(at the moment at least), I guess I'll be blogging more often soon~ Enough for now, time to study. Adios~
Signing Off~
Changes.
Date: Monday, December 19, 2011
Life makes a turn. In the midst of turning, we're full of uncertainty. Don't know if the turn will bring fortune and joy, or despair and worry. Nonetheless, whatever the situation, face it with positive attitude.
Signing Off~
Comeback!
Date: Saturday, December 17, 2011
It's coming to the end of 2011.
Surprised that I'll still post huh?
Well, despite how much I'm already off blogger, I just felt obliged to do at least one post. I mean, tho blogs are alr out of "fashion" amongst my friends and I, I still find it a pretty nice way to keep my writing skills in hand.
CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
Well, not that there's a lot to look forward to..
hmm, but I guess I just like the festive spirits!
2012 is coming. A whole new year with a lot of changes. 25% looking forward, 25% not looking forward. The other 50%? Hm, i guess nonchalant. LOL
Right, so much for today then, I hope I'll be back soon!
PAIPAI xoxo
Signing Off~
About
Hello, I'm just another human living on earth. However, more lies within the small frame of mine;the imaginative mind I have. I won't say my writing is fantastic, but hopefully someone out there is inspired by me?
Title
Express yourself, but nothing nasty!
Credits
A million of thanks is what i can say! Pretty thanks to Little-Miss-Wendy for the basecode & designing, xfantasywingsx for some code reference & cyworld for the pretty resources.
