Society drives people insane.
Date: Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Hmm, so I guess this time I'ld be back on blogging for good?
Ever since the beginning of school, I never felt quite the same. Maybe I've yet to get used to the fact that I am NO LONGER secondary 2, I am NO LONGER 204'11, I AM 15 now...
I feel so weird in school, true, I've made new friends, but I just feel different. Not that I"m being selfish and want to "keep" and "tie" my friends to me, but it's kind of saddening to see them with new friends. Not that I'm jealous, but I really miss the old times. How I wish I could turn time backwards, even just for a day, i'll have a whale of the time, having fun with my old friends and being carefree. Somehow, I still feel awkward in my new class.. So much uncertainty. The amount of homework now is incredible too~
My CNY holidays ended today, and here comes the deadline for the CNY homework, teacher's chasing us for the work blah..
Is it just my class? Because it seems other classes have lesser subj's of homework? Why o why... Why do we have homework for almost every subj except for Math? Talking about Math, here comes another headache... My teacher is nice, but I really don't like Math, and every lesson, every sum, even just looking at numbers, I get a terrible headache and my heart just cringes.. I've just gotten so terribly afraid of Math. I've asked for tuition, not that I have conceptual problems, but I need to boost my confidence. Yes, I shouldn't be so dependent, but things ain't gonna improve.. Sigh.. Why won't she understand? I really can't take anymore.. Same goes for Chemistry... They keep saying I'm lazy and don't read blah blah.. fact is I just can't get it into my head, and the minute I see balancing of chemical equations, I feel like crying, not being dramatic, but YES.
谁能了解我？who can understand me?
Okay, enough whining.. Altho no one's listening, I feel better blogging this.
And since this year feels bad to me(at the moment at least), I guess I'll be blogging more often soon~
Enough for now, time to study.
Adios~
Signing Off~
