New Life.
Date: Sunday, July 1, 2012
I was a fool, but I have thus grown.
"Sadness" is an emotion everyone goes through. But time will heal, and yes, I have healed. Regardless how I was in the past, that was the past and everything will be different now. :)
Alright. So the first week of Term 3 has passed. I would just like to make a short post about my goals for this term.
I was sad, but no more. I don't know if I made the right choice, but isn't life made out of trials?:)
Firstly, Priority. By this, I mean drawing a clear and definite line. My responsiblities and what I like.
The last term, I was pretty lost. I was floating, not on cloud line, but at the edge and at the brink of falling. This term, I will mark what I have to do, and what I choose to do. I will not go against my belief of how dumb uninteresting academics are. I never thought of it as a big part of my life, but life is cruel and as such, despite what I believe, I will try my best to ace it. Because, well, we need it at the end of the day. So probably, just change my point of view and take it as a proof of the work I put in. In a way, the fruits of my labour then. :)
Secondly, Health. I've decided to pursue a healthier everyday. Okay, I admit. I think I'm fat. Some say I am, some say I'm not. But whatever. I'm doing this for the health benefits. I'm cutting down on the unhealthy food and shall squeeze in some exercise each week just to keep fit. All the best to me in resisting food temptations! ><
Thirdly, Finance. Money. I haven't really been spending a lot but I want to keep track of my expenses~ Sadly, I missed the first week, but I'll start from tomorrow onwards and keep a count of what I buy. What I need ONLY. Wasting on uneccesarry things will be a great no-no. (well other than some extravagance, I am, after all a girl) :p
Lastly, Live Life To The Fullest. Whatever I do, I will do my utmost best! Of course, still keeping my priorities! But I'll make it a point to get something out of everything I do. As the same time, let people around me do likewise, and not waste their years and end up regretting in future. This sounds really noble and "big" but trust me, it isn't. Why? Because it just takes a little more effort and courage.
So basically, this four points. Sounds easy eh? Not really. I would have to shelf my clay creations and other crafts till when I'm really free. I have to sustain running/exercising. I think I'm pretty okay with 3, just the recording of expenses hmm.. And the last? I'm already take the first step :)
Okay, aside that, something fun to note~
Ever wanted punk/scene colorful hair but not wishing to dye or bleach as it may "kill" damage your hair? Why not chalk dying? :) Search "how to chalk dye your hair" on youtube and you'll see many tutorials! Go ahead! I tried it! Although it really dries out the hair, its really fun and cheap alternative! Chalk, you could get them really cheap! And you will only need water, hairdryer(opt) and curling iron/flat ironer! I tried it. Yes, it comes off a little when u touch it, so girls with the habit of touching your hair, control those fingers of yours! And there you go, something funky for the day!
Right, so I'll just stop here for the day. Won't be back for maybe a while? or maybe Ill be back tomorrow :X well, leave things to fate!
I wish everyone a happy life, and Happy Youth Day to all the youths out there! MWUAH~
Signing Off~
Sad week
Date: Sunday, February 26, 2012
I cried 5 times this week? Even as I'm posting this, I'm wiping my tears.
I HATE STUDYING!
Like seriously, I'm not being childish or what.
But I really hate studying.
A book before me, and I start tearing.
And idk what YOUR problem is.
I don't even want to post.....
Just gonna say, u r my friend, no matter how bad I'm treated. Because I'm such a person.
I will accept, so why don't u do? Accept that I'm like that. I'm just lone okay?
Why want me to be otherwise?
I won't , because I can't I can't and things are way past your imagination.....
Signing Off~
该放手就放手
Date: Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I cried. I don't want school anymore.
I hate school. I hate studying.
I tried being positive, thinking "tmr will be better!"
Half a day off school, I really feel much better.
But today, back in school, I really can't get myself to think positive.
Don't get a shit about physics, failed my SS.
I watch as all of u move on, yet I'm stuck, in my own thoughts.
It's time to move on, let go.
First term's gonna be over in 2-3 weeks. Can't keep being like this.
How many do I know in my new class? How many do I call friends instead of classmates?
And she thinks I'm spending too much time with friends, but truth is, I have so few.
是时候，放手吧~
Memories are only to be remembered...
Signing Off~
我不是超人
Date: Thursday, February 16, 2012
I wonder how long I can hold... One day I think I'm gonna let it all out. I'm on the verge of breakdown.. I really can't take this year's lifestyle. Yes, I'm super inflexible I know T.T but what to do, that's me and I can't change me overnight.
Signing Off~
THINKING POSITIVE!
Date: Saturday, February 4, 2012
So~
I wanna be happier!
But how? not with such a life?
But who cares?
Just live how I want to!
JUST BE HAPPY!
Signing Off~
Society drives people insane.
Date: Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Hmm, so I guess this time I'ld be back on blogging for good?
Ever since the beginning of school, I never felt quite the same. Maybe I've yet to get used to the fact that I am NO LONGER secondary 2, I am NO LONGER 204'11, I AM 15 now...
I feel so weird in school, true, I've made new friends, but I just feel different. Not that I"m being selfish and want to "keep" and "tie" my friends to me, but it's kind of saddening to see them with new friends. Not that I'm jealous, but I really miss the old times. How I wish I could turn time backwards, even just for a day, i'll have a whale of the time, having fun with my old friends and being carefree. Somehow, I still feel awkward in my new class.. So much uncertainty. The amount of homework now is incredible too~
My CNY holidays ended today, and here comes the deadline for the CNY homework, teacher's chasing us for the work blah..
Is it just my class? Because it seems other classes have lesser subj's of homework? Why o why... Why do we have homework for almost every subj except for Math? Talking about Math, here comes another headache... My teacher is nice, but I really don't like Math, and every lesson, every sum, even just looking at numbers, I get a terrible headache and my heart just cringes.. I've just gotten so terribly afraid of Math. I've asked for tuition, not that I have conceptual problems, but I need to boost my confidence. Yes, I shouldn't be so dependent, but things ain't gonna improve.. Sigh.. Why won't she understand? I really can't take anymore.. Same goes for Chemistry... They keep saying I'm lazy and don't read blah blah.. fact is I just can't get it into my head, and the minute I see balancing of chemical equations, I feel like crying, not being dramatic, but YES.
谁能了解我？who can understand me?
Okay, enough whining.. Altho no one's listening, I feel better blogging this.
And since this year feels bad to me(at the moment at least), I guess I'll be blogging more often soon~
Enough for now, time to study.
Adios~
Signing Off~
Changes.
Date: Monday, December 19, 2011
Life makes a turn.
In the midst of turning, we're full of uncertainty.
Don't know if the turn will bring fortune and joy,
or despair and worry.
Nonetheless, whatever the situation,
face it with positive attitude.
Signing Off~